Stepped on the scale today...YIKES! Big girl to say the least. Not an ugly big, but big nonetheless. Having really, really great workouts. Feel tight and swoll up for sure. I am happy to say that the newest gym that I have been giving a chance has finally started getting in the equipment that I need to get ready for Nationals this year. It was touch and go there for a while, but should be okay in the long run. E has her oncology appt. on Friday-I will keep you posted. You guys are great that have contacted me and wished the best for us during this time--thank you once again. This kind of stinks because the week has just started and I am already looking forward to the weekend! What is that all about? We are having family come in from out of town to visit that I absolutely love, so maybe that has something to do with it. We should have a great time. Gotta run...trash television is calling my name...i.e.."Fear Factor" and "Average Joe". lol! "G"

I am in better spirits since my extensive research on this particular cancer in canines...E will be fine, I am sure. Thanks again for all of the well wishes.
Had one hell of a great workout tonight. VERY INTENSE to say the least. It was back/bicep night and Kevin had this particularly evil gleam in his eye...which spells t-r-o-u-b-l-e for me! lol! Oh, I don't mind-BRING IT ON! It's always fun to freak out the people around my general area when I lift--come on now folks...you should be used to this from us two by now! HAHAHAHA! Afterwards, I was joking with Kevin about how mean it was to pile that weight on that he made me do, and he responded, "that was MY weight for my next set and you jumped on there- so it isn't my fault!!! lol!" Cute.....real cute there Kev! Whatever-- if it means that I will gain another solid 10# of muscle mass by Nationals this year, then I am ALL ON IT! Grrrr! lol! Tomorrow is Friday, which means that I should get some good sushi time in with friends. Sushi is good, clean food for us bbers, all except for the damn soy sauce. Water is my enemy and boy do I hold it after eating that stuff! It's been a trying week, I am READY FOR THE WEEKEND! "G"

Electra's results came back...neurofibrosarcoma...NOT GOOD. We will be seeing a veterinary oncologist VERY soon to see if we need to take further steps such as radiation since the tumor has already been removed. Suffice it to say that I was DEVASTATED. My dog means everything to me. I have had her since she was a puppy and we have had the greatest seven years together-- I am not letting her go just yet. Anyone who knows her knows that she is a blessing...BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, AND THE MOST INTELLIGENT DOG EVER. She is supernatural and I believe will be supernaturally healed. You know...when I first started this journal, I didn't give much thought to the locations of the people that might read it...near or far. I was shocked to walk into a local store near my home and have an employee there ask, "How is Electra doing?" He then proceeded to tell me that he read my journal and that is how he knew about it. Wow! Things like that really make my day. Electra and I had a long talk and she told me that I am not to have a day such as today again...no more tears and keep my chin up...she is going to be just fine! She and all of the people I hold dear have expressed the same thing so I will put my brave face back on and march onward. Wish us luck and if you are spiritually inclined...a prayer wouldn't hurt either. Thanks. "G"

Still no results yet, but I will keep everyone posted. Thanks for all of the well wishes...E and I appreciate it! We are receiving a torrential downpour today/tonight and it is seriously affecting my mood. I love a good storm with all of it's brilliant lightning displays, but this nonstop raining has got to go! My car is quick to hydroplane especially when I am in a hurry, so I have to find a lower gear when I am out and about in weather like this. I don't like that...my car is built for speed, and frankly so am I baby! lol! Tomorrow I will be at the George R. Brown Convention Center in Houston for the big Health/Fitness Expo. If anyone wants to stop in and say hi, I am sure you will be able to find me with no problem! "G"

Just got in from taking my baby, Electra, to the vet for her surgery today. She has a small lump on her leg that feels a bit fibrous so we are having her doctor take it out and send it to a pathology lab. Crazy the emotions that go through me before, during, and after I drop her off. I swear...I think I get more emotional about that dog than humans. She tried to get to me after they had taken her to the back...I almost lost it right there. I am not a big cryer, but the flood gates opened after I got into my car. Today will be a long and arduous day. "G"

So this week started off with a bang and has been erratic to say the least. I cannot stand it when I put a plan into motion and uncontrollable things knock me off course. I am getting it back together but the frustration remains. I am feeling pretty good in terms of my overall health and shape. Give me a few weeks and I will undo the damage I did over the holidays. That is the cool part about knowing your body so well (or as much as I can anyway!), you can tweak a few things and see results quickly. I am impatient so I want to wave my magic wand and have it happen now, but the reality is that I will have to wait. Electra (my dobie) has been acting hilarious lately. Kind of rebelling on some things it seems...sounds like her owner. I love people and animals that have an edge to them--keeps me on my toes. "G"

I keep having trouble with saying "this year" instead of saying "last year" when I speak of things that occurred in 2003. I need to get used to it because 2004 is going to be MY YEAR. Everything that I ever desired in terms of my bb career should come to fruition THIS year. I am both excited and anxious...I am ready to put my gameface on. Thank you to my new advisor, Howard Huddleston. He is out of Oklahoma and is doing his level best to guide me from afar. He is an expert on dealing with females it seems so I am very happy to have him on my side. The female body is a complex thing, one that has baffled both Kevin and I, so Howard will be a critical factor in this year's National pursuit. I certainly get a little extra pep in my step when I think of him and what we are planning to bring to Dallas this year--LET'S DO IT H. "G"

Friday night and here I sit. lol! I should be out doing something fun due to the crack down that is about to occur on Monday. Life as I know it is about to change once again. No more eating anytime I want, whatever I want, and random cardios. Gotta get my act together baby! As my great friend has told me...shows are really won in your offseason prep. That statement really hit home with me and I will attack '04 with a new intensity. I should have already started on the 1st, but I have been and always will be a MONDAY starter! lol! Pray for me people, it is hell pulling the reigns in after having such freedom for awhile. Hope everyone's New Year is starting off as a good one. "G"